Pouting About Posting

O my goodness I haven't blogged for like a week and I can't really make a good post today. I'm promising right now that I'll post something clever this week.
I will say this though, these little random thoughts on my mind...
1. If you haven't seen Soul Surfer you NEED to. I got it for Christmas and I've watched it like 3 times.
2. My room in completely done now. I'll post pics soon.
3. Winter break has been amazing
4. I am an extremely lucky girl.
5. I have the best boyfriend in the world.
THE END

So Cool!!!

Please watch this! I thought this song was already amazing, but I heard them do this and I was in awe!!!! LOVE THEM!!

So It's Said

The first semester has come and gone and it honestly went really fast for me, but the biggest thing that I have learned from my time short time in college is that it's going to take a lot of work. Don't get me wrong I knew I had to work, but it's a major now, I mean this is really important!!!! I feel a lot of pressure and at the same time I don't want to let myself down. So here is my pledge right here that I'm going to work twice as hard next semester!
But the good news is I'm done with school for A LONG TIME!! I'm extremely excited!
Christmas is almost here so that means a lot of festivities are going on. Number one thing is that My grandma, my mom and me made candy! It's only the best candy in the world!!!!!!


Peanut clusters and Toffee! YUMMMMMY!
and of course Peanut butter Balls!!
I always love making candy, it's just one of our many traditions that make the Holidays so much fun each year.
Speaking that I don't have school forever it gives me an excuse to be on Pintrest more:) I found this quote the other day and it made me smile:)

You gotta love a good quote especially from someone cool like Audrey Hepburn!

Well tonight is "my" family Christmas party and I'm really excited because not only is it going to be so fun, but I get to be with my boyfriend and I haven't seen him for a few days! I miss him soooooooooooo much!!!!!

Family Party #1

Saturday was my "other family's" Christmas party!! It was great:) I love my new family so much!! They have accepted me like I've always have belonged there and I love it:)
It's so crazy how more fun the holidays are when you get to spend it with the love of your life:)
It weird that he and I are going on 8 months!! Time as flown, but at the same time I feel like it was only yesterday when I heard those words "I love you" come from that guy that I have fallin in love with.
So anyway back to the Christmas party:) We had a blast!!! First we played some really fun and funny Christmas games and then we ate some yummy food!!! Afterwards we headed down town on the trax! Temple square was beautiful as always!! It was a good feeling to be there with my man:) After that we went back had some hot chocolate and other treats and watched Home Alone 2! Everyone pretty much fell asleep! And lucky for me I got to sleep over! I love when we get a chance to do that:) It's one of the best feelings in the world!!!
So next week is my family party and I can't wait to have more Christmas fun and of course to show off my man to the fam.
Also I only have one more final this week! Merry Christmas to me!!!

Luck I'm In Love With...

Have you ever heard that song by Jason Mraz and Colbie Caillat? Well it's a good one and right now I find that song is saying a lot about what I'm feeling right now.
"Boy I hear you in my dreamsI feel your whisper across the sea
I keep you with me in my heart
You make it easier when life gets hard
I'm lucky I'm in love with my best friend
Lucky to have been where I have been
Lucky to be coming home again...
Lucky we're in love in every way
Lucky to have stayed where we have stayed..."
I feel like a lot of my friends from high school have really moved on with out me. They really think of me anymore.
If I didn't have the guy that I have I don't know what I would do. I wish my friends would want to share that kind of excitement about go growing up and fallin in love, but I guess things change sometimes and it's really hard. So I'm really lucky that my best friend loves me and I know that he isn't going anywhere.

Attempting...

I am attempting really hard to to many thing this week. First...
Braiding my hair. I've never done it before...not too bad for a first time!

Second...passing my finals! I'm soooooo scared!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

At least this weekend will be really fun:) Just gotta get through 4 o clock tomorrow and I'll be good:)

Seriously HOT!

OMG!!!! I saw these pics and I about died!!!! If you don't like the men of TVD then you have some serious problems!!! Nina is soooooooooo lucky!

And how could I forget my favorite hottie...

AS you can see he really enjoys his new hat:) o my it's so great!!! He'll be nice and warm for temple lights this weekend that's for sure!!

The Homework Song

Finals are going to kiil me all this freaking homework and studying!!!!!! UGH!! Can't wait for this semester to DIE!!!!! At least I got The Homework Song to keep me going:)



O you gotta love Arthur:)

I Want a Ring

Okay I am obsessed about getting married right now and I can't stop thinking about my wedding!!!



I don't want to wait to long!! I'm in love so I want to make it official!!!!

Picture This

Here are some pics that made up some of the past few days...I should have taken more but what do you do!

Strange boys wearing my jackets, Me wearing my boyfriend's shirt, some cute looking presents and a sleeping cat:)

It may not be the most exciting things that happened this week but its what i took pictures of so there you have it:)

O and P.S and the Hunger Games countdown, sorry that its really lousy:) it's super awesome though so i'm keeping it!

Week of Greatness

This past week so much fun!! So many great things happened and I had a lot of fun!
First if all my Birthday was AMAZING!! I got up went to school for luckily just one class then came home and surprisingly got a new phone from my parents! I am in love with it!! I was not expecting it at all! Then I got some shopping money and the I went off the mall:) I got a lot of good stuff!!!
Then my family and my man went to The Cheese Cake Factory for dinner and of course it was delicious!!!!!! Then I went and saw Breaking Dawn with my "other" family and it was great! The movie had some parts that I really liked, but then there were some part where I was like "Are you kidding me!?" After that I went to hang out with my man for a little longer and opened my present from him and his family. I got a super cute new coat and some cute jewelery!
As midnight came me friends told me they had an extra ticket for the movie so yay my lover got the come with me!!! He is such a good boyfriend, he absolutely hates Twilight but he came with me:) He looked especially hott that night BTW so I felt good walking around with him through the craziness of girls everywhere!!
So it was an excellent day! And then I got to do even more fun things like going to breakfast yesterday for celebration!!
But another good thing that happened this week was putting up the Christmas tree at my man's house! It was so fun and I just got even more excited for Christmas!!!!!!
Another good thing that happened this week was seeing my family! My uncle, who lives is Arizona came up this weekend and my aunt, who lives in Long Beach came to visit! We all went and visited are great grandma together.

My mom with my cousins Shaw and baby Koa

My Grandpa, grandma and Great Grandma with the kids and spouses! Mom and Dad, Uncle Shane and Michelle and Aunt Mindy and Brain.

The Grand kids:) Shaw Koa Keyen Shandy

The Kids! Sharee, Mindy and Shane

I was so happy to see them again and I am hopefully going to be seeing them again soon!!!

Such a GREAT week!!!

19...Already?

I've already have been 18 for an entire year? What the? Thursday is my birthday!! Woo hoo!! I'm going to be 19...that seems so old! haha!! I remember always thinking about what I would be like when I was 18. I thought 18 seemed so much older, but just thinking about saying I'm 19 takes it to a whole new level for me!
18 has been a great year:) Finishing high school, graduating, meeting the love of my life, starting a job and growing up! It's been good being 18!
It's strange thinking about my life now. I mean all the things that you talk about your whole life are actually happening. I'm in college, taking the steps to an actual career. It's not about getting a 4.0 in high school anymore. I'm in a serious relationship. I'm not checking out my crush in class. It's all happening for real now.
But anyways I loved being 18! and i'm really exited to be 19!
This week is going to be so much fun! I am just beyond happy right now:) I painted my room this weekend and it looks so cool!!!! My room looks entirely different from what it was. It looks more like me now. I love it! Now this week is just going to make it better. Thursday will be so fun! I'm going to go shopping(my favorite activity) with birthday money and have a yummy dinner! Then going to Breaking Dawn...TWICE!! At first I didn't even think I was going at all but then my lovely friends got me an extra ticket and then my man's mommy got me one too!! I get to go with my second family and then go with my friends at midnight:) Talk about an awesome birthday!!
Then an Saturday I get to do a little extra celebrating with my man cause he is taking me out for breakfast:) I can't wait!! I hope these next couple days go by fast! I'll have to keep myself busy by fixing up my room and homework!! I'm going to enjoy my last days as 18!!!!!!!!

6 Months and...

It's a little unreal to me to say that me and my darling have been together 6 months! I have never been with anyone that long before and I know the reason why....I'm so in love I don't think I will ever fall out of it.
All my other relationships before were always very short and very hurtful. The end came out of the blue, but now that I look back on both of them I start realize maybe I should have been paying better attention to what was really going on.
Even though those times were hard I learned a lot form them. And the biggest thing I learned was what real "love" is. I'm not saying that I was ready to fall in love with my absolute perfect soul mate at those times, but I know what I means now.
I know what it feels like to have someone care about you just has much as you care about them. I know what it's like to have someone think about you all the time. I what it feels like to know that the place you most want to be is the same place as the person you want to be with. I know that no matter what happens he is going to be there.
Even though falling love was the last thing I wanted to do 6 months ago, I wouldn't change it for anything. It's the best thing that ever happened to me.
It's been 6 months and I know that there will be many more months to come:)

Where Has the Time Gone?

I've been a slacker....I'll admit it. So here's the dish...
Halloween was so fun this year! I went to my BF's family party which was so much fun! We played the funniest games like Pumpkin Bowling!! Haha that one was my favorite!! This year i dressed up as a Bumble bee! I know it's random. I really wanted to be a flapper this year but I couldn't find a good costume, but luckily my mom found the bee so it all worked out;)
Next week is going to be a really eventful week tho....
Monday is me and my man's 6 month Anniversary!!! I can't believe it! Half a Year!! WOW! So we're gonna go out and have a lovely evening! I'm excited!
Also an Monday I am picking classes for next semester! STRESSFUL!!!!
So besides Top Ten i'm out for the day! peace;)

Picture Time

Why not?

Wham It!!

I saw this at work the other day and I almost peed my pants laughing!

Need Some Cheer?

If you're in a sad mood and need a little light in the day? listen to JB's new song! It so freaking cute:) It really makes me want to kiss my man and gets me even more excited for Christmas!

Top Ten Thursday: My Bad Habits

Everyone has those bad habits, but I hate thinking that I have 10 of them! Yikes! I'll give it shot though. I'm sure I can think of plenty.
10. Never actually finishing all the laundry. I always get to lazy to do the last load.
9. Procrastinating about homework
8. Never eating breakfast
7. I eat way too much ice cream!
6. I'm sloppy about working out. I have a really good week, then stop...not good.
5.I change my outfit about 3 times a day
4. Spending all my pay check
3. Going to bed really late every night
2. Never getting up in the morning at the time I set my alarm for.
1. Biting my nails
Ouch those are harsh!!

Fall Freak Out

I'm freaking in love with Fall break! It's the best thing that's happened this whole school year because I don't have to go to school! hahahaha! I've done 3 things this whole fall break...
1. Sleep
2. Eat (not healthy I will add, which is bad)
3. Clean out my room! I'm redecorating and i'm so excited!!!
ok and maybe I could add hanging out with my lover, but I don't want to bore you all with my constant confession of how in love I am:)
It's been a pretty amazing week already!! And I'm just getting more and more excited about redoing my room!
About 4 years ago I went all out on my room. Purple, Orange and Pink poka dots on the walls! I love it, but I think it's time to move on from the girlie 13 year old me...
I'm still keeping the orange, but i'm painting the purple black with white poka dots! I found to coolest bed spread ever and I'm just beyond excited to paint and to change all the purple and pink. I think it's more mature and I think it will be more of a "cool and sleek" vibe rather than a "cute fluffy vibe" It's gonna be awesome! Hopefully I'll be able to decorate my own house soon:)

"Falling" In and Out of Place

3 cheers for Fall!!!! And let's not forget that October is one of the best months of the year!! I love it! So far October has brought some new things to view. Some good. Some bad. It's been a little hard in some areas. The change in the weather has been bringing changes into my life.
Some of the bad things. Friends. When you realize that you really can drift away from your best friends. They still are your best friends, but you become less important. I feel like my friends feel that way about me. They think I don't want to be with them, but it's not true.
School is crazy! I can't believe how different it is, but I think now that it's been about a month I'm starting to get used to it.
So the good stuff fallin into place! My man and me have officially been together for 5 months! I can't even begin to explain how happy and how great my life is with him in it. I love him with all my heart. It's the best feeling knowing that someone that i'm absolutely crazy about loves me just has much if not more back. and the best thing is I can be exactly how I am. I don't have to hide anything from him and I know no matter what he is there beside me. Even when I'm not with him I know he's thinking about me. He will always be there to take care of me and love me. It feels so good to be loved be such an amazing guy!
The best time of the year is here and it can only get better. The best part is I get to spend it with the person I love the most.

Top Ten: The Simple Things and My Broken Boyfriend

Top Ten is back this week yay! K this week makes me feel good! Top Tens Simple Things That Make Me Happy!!!!!!!
10. My bed is made when I get home from school
9. Getting a text in the morning on my way to school
8. Catching my favorite window seat on trax
7. When my Prof lets my class out earlier so I catch the earlier train, which means I get home earlier!!
6. A good talk with my mom
5. Family Game Nights
4. Drive inn movies
3. Buying a new book
2. Playing tennis
1. When my boyfriend winks at me:) it's sooooooooo great! Gives me butterflies every single time!

Second part if my post today is about my poor boyfiend's bad luck:( It's crazy what he has gone through this month!!!
Frist he got braces! If you've had braces you know that feeling...not good! But he is getting used to it. But then he got a really bad ear infection! He gets them a lot. Eventually he is going to have to surgery on them. Then lastly yesterday he twisted his foot and ankle and today we found out that it is BROKEN!!!!!!! He has to wear a boot and use crutches for 3 weeks! It's horrible! But he's a strong guy and he is still going to do as much as he can. I still feel sad because we won't be able to play tennis for awhile and he loves playing basketball so it's still extremely hard for him. I love him and I'm proud of him for taking everything so well. He is still my sweet funny boyfriend, he just has a broken foot:)

Looking Good

I've made some more adjustments to the blog and I think for the most part it's looking good! Just a few more things to finish and it will be just the way I want it.
I'm extremely bored right now. Wednesdays are long days for me at school. I have a big break in between before my last class and I should be using that time to do some homework and study, but I really want to do this instead!!
I am counting down to hours for tomorrow! This is how my weeks go now...
I HATE Mondays and Wednesdays! If I can make it to Thursday then I'm pretty happy! Thursday is a great day. First reason: I only have one class. Second: I get home early! Third: My boyfriend's brother has his football games. Fourth: I get to spend the rest of the day with my sweetie pie:) Fifth: My favorite TV shows are on that night! Vampire Diaries and Project Runway!!!! Then the rest of the weekend is GREAT!!
This weekend is gonna be especially great!! Tomorrow is football game and then a night out at Desert Star! Friday I'm getting my hair colored! I'm going all blond! o yeah!! Saturday is the UTE game!!! I can't wait!! Please go by fast Wednesday!! I'm begging you!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Under Construction

So if you can't tell my blog isn't looking so hott right now...but don't worry give me a couple days and I will have it looking good!!!

A Holiday Touch

I thought my blog was missing something and I think I finally found out what it was...
Enjoy the new countdown:) It sure makes me "jolly"!!!!

Super Senior

I never in a million years did I think I would a super senior!! NEVER EVER!!!! When I saw people who came back to high school for football games etc I seriously thought they were retarded! But my feelings have changed....
This situation is something you can't understand if you never had to deal with it. But to give you a thought or two, all my pros and cons on being a super senior are...
Pro: Get to dress up fancy again.
Con: I'm not in high school.
Pro: I get to have a fun day with my lover:)
Con: I'm not in high school. So the people in my group and me really didn't have a connection.
Pro: I get to go "back" in a way.
Con: I'm not in high school I had my time!!!
Pro: Have fun with my man and watching him enjoy his senior year!
Con: I'm not in high school. I already had my senior year;(
When all in said and done I honestly have no problem being a super senior:)
This is how my Super Senior event weekend went:
Friday night went to the homecoming game! I don't go as far as seating in the student section. Luckily my man's family was all there so we sat with them and I saw other SS's as well and it was way fun!!!
Saturday was great too!! The boys made us a yummy breakfast and then we went to a trampoline area called Airborne. That was the only flaw because I am not really a fan of "bouncing around" if you no what I mean. Anyways we went home and got ready and then went to Olive Garden for dinner! Of course it was very delicious:) Then it was off to the dance!! It was great! Frist because I saw a lot of friends and even more SS's! haha! Second I love dancing! Third I love dancing with my man even more!!!!! We had so much fun dancing! I was really surprised how much he danced. I was expecting that the slow would be good, but he danced the night away and it was awesome!!
After the dance we went to the drive in movies! I freakin love the drive in!!! So much FUN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Chillin out in the back of the truck, eating yummy snacks, watching a scary movie with my favorite person in the entire world, under the pretty moonlight:) What could be better than that!? :):)
So everything was great:) I love my boyfriend so much! I had a blast and I got to relive a small part of some of things that I miss about high school! Fantastic!



My man and me were looking good:) He is so handsome!!

Top Ten: Mean Things I Wish I Could Do...

This might possibly be the best Top Ten Thursday yet!!! Yeah buddy;)
Hmm...Think evil. Think dirty. Honestly it's not that hard to do!!!
10. Punch an annoying girl in the face!! I can think of many people to do that to!
9. When your talking to someone and they are texting when they should be looking at you while you talk, I want to take their phone and throw in at the wall. I might even beat it with something depending on who it was.
8. When I ride trax some days I would just love to close the door on a person right before they get there. That one is pretty mean.
7. Flip someone off while driving. This could happen someday...
6. Another trax one. When it gets really crowded if I was the train driver I would purposely slam on the brakes to make all the people go flying!!! haha!!!
5. When you're at a store trying on clothes and the girl next to you is thinking about buying a certain item that look hideous...I would tell her my opinion of the item.
4. Pants someone in public
3. Slip something gross in a person's food...maybe
2. Trip a waiter while they are carrying a big try of food. (p.s. my bf helped me with this one)
1. Poor a milkshake on a cheerleader...like the part in The Princess Diaries! I would absolutely LOVE to do that to someone!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Long Time Gone

First off right now I am sitting in the union building eating my lunch while the way sweet Ok Go music video "Here It Goes Again" is on! Haha such a awesome video, if you're one of the uncool people who still haven't seen that you need to watch it ASAP!!
Ok I know I promised I would would keep up on my blogging, but I have failed! In all honestly though I really haven't had a lot to say and I really have been busy this past few days. I will say this...Life. Is. Good. Yes I stress about school and complain about work every time I go, but really my life is fabulous!! I am extremely grateful for that.
A few nights ago I went out to ice cream with my besties and my BF:) I MISS MY FRIENDS SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO FREAKING MUCH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I was so glad to see them home form college this labor day weekend! It was sad to see them head back home. I am so happy for all of them. Some of them for being to brave and moving out. Some for working so hard to accomplish everything they want and all of them are becoming even more amazing women than they already are! I love you guys so much!!! I am so glad that I have such amazing friends who gave me the best times of my life and made me who I am today!
So some points that I would like to mention about my 2 weeks in college:
#1 Your Prof's don't care what you do. If you don't come to class they don't care. I think that's good and bad.
#2 If you're sitting all alone at lunch no one looks at you thinking "Oh the poor girl is sitting all alone." No one cares!
#3 If you don't have a lap top in front of you at lunch, you're having a good time with your room mates. BTW I don't have room mates.
#4 The only club worth joining is the MUSS
Most of those sound pretty negative, but no worries I'm fine! But they're all true!!!
I would like to mention one last thing before I sign off....
Today my man and me have been together 4 months:) Woo hoo for us!!!!!!!

Top Ten: Weird Things I Do

Before I start I have successfully gotten through a whole week of college!!!! Yay ME!
ok this is a hard one Kayla!! Hmm...were to begin. The weirdest things I do...
10. When I go into stores like Office Depot I always like touching all the pens and paper. It makes me happy.
9. I change my outfit probably around 2-3times a day...by choice
8. Sometimes I buy clothes and only wear once then never wear them again
7. When I buy new clothes I don't take them out of the bag until I wear them.
6. When I'm bored I like to plan things that I want for my wedding
5. Most the times when I go book shopping, I really do judge the book by it's cover.
4. I love twitter stalking Justin Bieber
3. I bite my nails even if there is finger nail polish on them.
2. I like picturing myself as a Victoria Secert model
1. I love putting on different shades of lip stick and "test" them out;)

Here We Go!!

I did it!! I susccesfully went to college today, sat in a college class, the whole nine!!! Wow!!! It was really strange sitting in class thinking, "Here I am in college." It's almost unreal! but I did it!! Sadly I already have homework and I had to work today too! but it was great!! I really think i'm gonna enjoy this college thing!! Here we go University of Utah! I'm here!!!!!

Top Ten 2 Days Late

Alright I never got around to do my Top Ten Thursday so I'm doing mine today. So...let me think the top ten things I'm attracted to on a guy....

10. Facial hair: I never thought I would ever like a guy with facial hair, but I have most definitely changed my mind! I've become a fan!

9. Butt: One of the best things in the world is a nice butt in some good jeans. Ooooo yeah:)

8. Height: Before I started dating me boyfriend the guys that I went out with were always pretty short but now I love guys being tall! It makes them way hotter!

7. Athletic: I like playing sports and I like watching sports so if a guys plays sports and likes watching sports then chances are I will be attracted to him.

6. Laugh: When a guy has a cute attractive laugh, that makes me laugh...I fall in love:):)

5. Eyes: I love when guys have pretty eyes. It sounds weird calling a something on a guy pretty but pretty eyes are a must! Deep blue or dark brown I'm a fan!

4. Voice: I don't know why but hearing that certain voice gives me butterflies, but it's hard to explain what an attractive voice sounds like so hopefully you all know what I'm trying to say!!

3. Teeth/Smile: Straight white teeth in a good smile can take a girls breath away!!! or even a smirk!

2. Body: I love toned muscular arms and legs. When you can get chills feels arms like that around you or when a guys just has a NICE HOTT body, you just can't deny it!!!!!:):)

1. Personality: It may not be the first thing I notice about a guy, but in the end it's whats matters the most. If he has a good personality it makes him more attractive in every way. His humor, what he says, how he treats you, if he has the whole package in that department then you know you've found a good one;)

What I Will Do

It's strange saying this but this is the last week of summer for me. It's insane!!!! There are so many changes ahead of me and it's scary, but luck me I have had some really good words of advice and encouragement. Even little things from comments of facebook to bigger things like long conversations it's really helping me know that even though these big changes are coming it's all going to be good changes and life is just going to get better, even if it's going to be all new.

So of course there are tons of things on my mind that I want to do now.

-Have fun and earn some money at my NEW JOB! Yay!

-Learn more more at college

-Get good grades

-Study and work hard

-Enjoy time with family and friends

-Have the best times with my man

-Be the best I can be, do the best I can

Some seem simple to me and some are a little bit harder, but it works!

O and of course for my blog I'm gonna try to do more creative things of course;)

Another thing to throw out there, don't you just love when you put your ipod on shuffle and a song that you love, that you totally forgot about comes on? I love it! There are so many songs that I've heard tonight that I love and haven't heard in forever!!!

Ok one last random thought, if you have been to Bath and Body Works lately you need to go check out their new scent Paris Amour!!! It smells amazing!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Wondering...

I really think I have a problem. I can't stop worrying about everything!!!!!

I have so many fears inside me I can't stand it!!!!!

I'm scared what changes will happen when school starts.

I'm worried if I can't find a job.

I'm scared I will lose him.

I'm scared I can't be the person everyone wants me to be.

I'm worried I won't do all the things I want to do.

I'm so mad at myself that I can't just accept that everything is fine. I'm mad that it sometimes comes out when I'm with him. I hate it. I just need to keep telling myself it's ok and everything is fine.

I Love you so..

This week has pretty much been the best week of my life!!! I had such a good time every day!!!

I really had a good time with my friends Tuesday! I'm gonna miss all of them who are moving away. I have had the best times with them. I honestly couldn't ask for better friends. They were always there to make me laugh and to talk about anything. It's not just the great memories that I'm gonna miss it's going to be the small things too like, going to a class, out to lunch or even just meeting up with them at the locker in the morning. I love them all so much and I'll never forget the amazing things that we did together and how we made each other better too.

Another good thing that happened this week was school shopping! O my gosh I really do have a problem when it comes to wanting everything I see in the mall! I love clothes!!!!!!!!!!

But anyway the person that I love the most has made me speechless this week. There really are no words that I can use to describe how our time together just keeps getting better and better. I'm just so happy. I've never been happy like this before. I've never been so excited for the future either. There is just so many things that I can't wait to do with him. Holidays, family and just knowing that he'll be there it's just the best feeling in the world.

Also I just wanted to add this song on my blog this post because it's so pretty and I love it! Totally random but enjoy;)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wo5j_98lays&feature=player_embedded

Undecided

Ok this post is long over due! I keep putting blogging on list of to do's but then I never seem to get to it. So let me think of I should write about...

Well me and my man have been great! I really love him and I know that he loves me. It's such a happy thing to know you're on someones's mind all day, just like they our on yours. I have had my fair share of heartbreak and now I have found someone who I know would never think of leaving me or making me sad. I'll always love him no matter what happens.

I have just been awakened today about how close the summer is to being over! It's weird how at graduation I thought I had all this time to have all these summer adventures and plenty of time to say good bye to friends leaving for college, but I was very very wrong. It's flipping AUGUST! What the heck!? It's all coming at me at once and I feel so unprepared! I hope that in these next few weeks I will be able to pull everything together and be ok. I have so many worries! Worries about school, worries about what will happen to my friends, worries about him and worries about myself.

I know that no matter what though i'm not alone.

This week is gonna be pretty fun! Tomorrow hanging with the girls. Tuesday going up to U and spending the day with family. Then Thursday BACK TO SCHOOL SHOPPING! Oh how I love shopping!! It's gonna be so great! Life is going by fast, but I'm taking time to enjoy it and it's good:)

Laughter

I think it's really funny that sometimes the most simple uncomplicated things can become the best times you will ever have.

Last night me and my man just had a chillin night watching Top Gear (the UK version) which is probably are favorite show, listened to music, and just laughed and laughed and laughed!!! Sure we've laughed together before, but last night we just couldn't stop! We had the best time ever! And wants even better is that it was just me and him. We didn't need anything to entertain us or something really special to happen. We had all we needed right there.

I just love his laugh too! It's the best laugh I've ever heard and it's even better when I'm the cause of it!! I hope that the person who has that laugh will be in my life forever. I want that more than anything in the world.

Alright I'll switch from the lovey dovey and talk about something else. So I'm going camping on Thursday with my BF and his family. It should be fun, but it's camping....so I can't look cute and I'll get all smelly. Don't get me wrong I love sleeping in tents ans spending short periods on time out in the wilderness, but this isn't girls camp when it's all girls and no boys!! I'll be with my boyfriend all day and night. I'll admit it I'm a little nervous about that.

So I got a week of adventure ahead, we'll see how it goes!

Potter Forever

Harry Potter where to being!!! Lets just say that Harry and I go way back! haha! I remember the first time that I read the first Harry Potter book. I think I was in the second grade and my grandma had actually told me about the book. So she would come over to my house every night and we would read Harry Potter together. I loved the way my grandma read to me. Together we feel in love with the magical word and we were instantly hooked!!! I think my grandma read to me till about book 3.

Still even though we didn't read them together we still were just as obsessed with it. I really believe there will never be anything like Harry Potter. Sure there's Twilight but that not everyone likes it like the way EVERYONE likes Harry Potter.

Another good memory I have is when the 7th book came out. O I was sooooooooo excited to see what was going to happen. I really thought I could have passed out and I was so sure that Harry was going to die!!!

And now last night. The last Potter movie. So sad but so amazing! I really loved it! I got to spend it with the best people, my favorite people and good friends and family! It's something I will never forget. So thank you Harry Potter!!! Thank you for amazing adventures and excitement. Thank you for the memories I'll never forget!!!

POTTER FOREVER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1

It's a New Day

Wow this has been one of the most emotional weeks of my life! I can't express in words how relieved I am it's over! I will for sure be sleeping better this week.

So I have officially registered for the Fall semester at the University of Utah. It's weird to say that out loud. And this week the reality that school is only about month away really hit me square in the face. I mean one minute I'm thinking "o school is forever away I have plenty of time!" then the next minute I'm sitting in a room at the Marriott Library with 30 other kids filling out my class schedule!! WHAT THE!!?

There are some things that learned this week. Lessons that have changed me forever. I grateful that my heavenly father is here for me and will forgive me for my mistakes. Give me a second chance to become the best person that I can be.

Some good things did happen this week though. I finally got to dance with my boyfriend!!! We didn't have a chance to at his sister's wedding, but we got to last night at another wedding! I love it! He is just the best! I love him so much!!

This week will be much better. For one thing I will actually get to see my man more. And then of course there is the obvious...HARRY POTTER!! I can't believe it's already here! The last HP movie EVER! It's exciting, but at the same time it's very sad. I mean I really have grown up with good old old Harry! we've had some really fun times!!!! But Thursday at the midnight show will be great! Another fun memory of the Harry Potter adventure!!!!!

Grateful and Thankful

This week has been the most emotional draining week of my life. And when I say most, I really truly mean it. I will never have a week like this again. I won't let it happen ever again.
I dedicated this post the all those people who have inspired me, taught me or have been a friend to me in any way. Thank you to all my young women leaders, Sunday school teachers, youth conference ma's and pa's anyone in the church. Thank you to all my amazing friends to always keeping on the straight and narrow path. And of course mostly thank you to my family for loving me when I make mistakes, when I have fallen or scared them.
but the one person then I need to thank the most is my heavenly father. He has never left my side. Even when I felt most alone and the most scared. I love him so much. And even when I probably didn't deserve and answered prayer his love was always there for me. He was looking out for me and protecting me.
I am so extremely grateful for this gospel in my life. I used to think "why do I need to hear this lesson over again" or "something like this would never happen to me" Well the older I seam to get the more I see why the church set up these programs and lessons for the youth. They really know whats best. They know whats going to male us happy. They know what leads to making you the best person you can be. I understand that now and I will never ever forget it.

What if?

Yesterday I spent the better half of my day with my wonderful man! This is how to day was supposed to go...Hang out with my lover, get some food, and then go hike Ensigns peak to look over the valley with some of my friends, but the last thing on my list didn't work out how it planned. We ended up going alone. But now that we hiked up that hill together and shared a small moment of looking over the beautiful city that late night, nothing could have been more perfect. As he out his arms around me and talked to me, there's is nothing that would ever make me feel more calm and happy. I'll never forget the things he said, the way he touched me and the way he kissed me up on that hill.
Some times I try to think what my favorite thing about him is...but I really think that one of them would be talking, just talking. Tonight was a good talking night. Subject after subject came up after the other. I love that! And tonight he asked me a very good question. "What would your life be like if I wasn't part of it?" So tonight I'm going to sleep with that question in my mind. What would life be like? What would I be doing? what if I never meet him? It's interesting and scary to think about. I know one thing though I wouldn't be has happy and I would feel very alone. But I'm not. So maybe the real question is why did I get to be so lucky?

The Little Things

It's the little things he does that make me love him more and more.
The way he laughs. The way he smiles and smirks. A serious face or concerned. A longing look or a quick glance. A light in his brown eyes that can say more than words.
If all I could hear was his soft whisper in my ear, it would already be enough. And nothing gives me more comfort than hearing the words of our song.
"Cause baby everything that I have in yours. You will never go cold or hungry. I'll be there when your insecure. Let you know that you're always lovely. Cause you are the only thing that I got right...Nothing will ever come between us, cause I'll be standing right next to you."

What's New?

Alright here we go...I'm not sure where to begin. Ok so here's a good place to start...
I graduated high school! Yup I am no longer a high school student! It's so insane!!! I'm being completely honest when I say I will actually miss high school. I have had so many good memmories, fun times with friends, and just have a fantasic time through those years. Those years are memmories that I will never forget as long as I live.
Alright another major thing that happened was that I have a boyfriend! But you know it's weird saying that word. First of all I've never really had a guy I would call my boyfriend, but I feel like that word doesn't fit what he means to me. I really love him. He makes me laugh and beyond happy. And he loves me. I mean he really loves me. But anyway I'll talk more about that later...
So yeah new things in my life. The summer is here and it's already been a blast and there's so much more to look forward to!
Ok so it's about 2 am so I think this post is a good start to get me back on the blogging track! Sweet dreams fellow bloggers!!

after the kiss.

Have you ever kissed someone thinking "this is probably the last time I will kiss you" or the opposite, "I will never ever get tired of this, there is no end in sight." I have done both. So now after all is said and done, what now? what happens after the kiss? This is a passage from one of my favorite books... ...this kiss says he needs you more than anything, that he will aim over and over agian at that tender haiku buried deep in your own trenches until he hits the right syllable. this kiss will wipe your mind of all things, will make you forget your name your face what town our living in and whos driving you home. it is a kiss that when it ends will leave you gasping and glossy-eyed for hours later, will follow you home as you stare in the bathroom mirror. it is a kiss so loud and long that your whole mind wil scream, that can't happen again, while your whole body will twitch a little, wondering if it could just once more.

Prom Prep

I'm happy to say that I'm going to Prom! I really didn't think that it was going to happen, but it did and I'm so relieved!!!! I'm sooooo excited!! Not only because I love my dress, but also my group will be way fun!! And it's the last dance EVER!!! I can't believe it! I have been to every dance since homecoming Junior year. So basically it's goes Prom, Senior dinner dance, then Graduation and that's it!! CRAZY!!!! But these last couple of months are going to be the best, sad, but good!!!
Anyway this week will hopefully go by fast cause Saturday is gonna be great!!!

I'm Still Where You Left Me

I may not have have a perfect life. I may not have an incredible life story and words of inspiration for the world, but I do have things that are worth something.
First of all I have the greatest friends in the world. I never in my entire life have had one of my friends take me away from who I am, they have only made me a better me.
I have a family who loves me. They care about me. I love them even though they can drive me crazy. I will be able go to collage next Fall at an amazing school and continue and start a new journey in my life.
But there are still those times when you feel over looked. The second choice. and maybe even the third.
I haven't changed who I am. Some people I want to stay away from me and some seam to be drifting away. Why does the person I hate come back and the people I care about don't care about me. I wish I could tell them how I feel, but don't know how. I do what I would say.
To the person who I want to go away, I would tell them that even though it may seam like you can always run back to me to gain satisfaction in hurting or messing with me. You're wrong. You get what you want and then expect me to be where you left me the last time. I'm done with games. It's time to really move on this time. You are unknown and at the the same time familiar to me. We keep playing this game, but now it's time to stop. We've tried to make things work and I listened to what you said, but you didn't change, you're still the same selfish person. I don't want to be with someone like you...ever. I don't care anymore. It's a waste of time. I want to move on to better things, things that are really meaningful.
To the person drifting away...I would tell them even when you do talk to me I'm not there. It's always about you. You are always waiting for the more important person to come along. Whatever I think and say, it's never as important as what you have to say and now it's becoming you just not saying anything. I wish you would just remember.
So to both people I could tell them similar things.
To the user "You make think I'm still where you left me, but I've moved on and I won't be there next time."
To the drifter "I wish you cared and I may not be where you left me, but I'm still your friend. Always have been. Always will be."

The Chill. The Relaxed and The Lazy

This week has been the most laid back school week ever! Yesterday was the playoff game so instead of going to school we took a road trip to the basketball game. It was way fun and We WON! so we play gain tomorrow!
Then today everyone got to sleep in because the Juniors are taking the ACT! BREAKFAST for us!!!! I don't have to go to school till noon!! Woooo!! And then can you believe it? It gets even better! No school Friday!
Pretty much a really good week!

The Eventful and Uneventful

I feel like so much has already happened this week, but it's not really a whole lot when I really think about it. Monday was pretty great, but something really crazy happened yesterday!
My mom, aunt and grandma were at Sears and while they were there the people said that they were going to be selling bags for 1$!!!!!!! That's right ONE DOLLAR!!!! So everyone at the store went crazy grabbing all these designer bags, so my mom called me and to come over and get some bags that I liked! I got 4 news bags! All together we added up how much the regular cost of the bags were and it was 870$$$$!!!!! Crazy!! We got all of them for 20$ It was the most insane shopping experience EVER!!
Then as I was at the mall I was walking around and saw that Buckle was hiring, so I went home and filled out an application. Then like 20 minutes later I got a e-mail to call and schedule an appointment so I did and now I have an interveiw tomorrow!! I'm excited! I really hope I get the job! Working 3 days a week for some extra cash would be sooo GREAT!! But we will see...
And even more going on....I am now going to the Linkin Park concert on Friday!! Woo hoo!! My friend Joyce asked me to come with her and others and I think it will be way fun!
Good things:)

Runaway Love

I have decided that one of my favorite JB songs is Runaway Love. And that got me thinking have I ever had a runaway love? I don't think I have.
And now I'm trying to decided what I would call my past "relationships", if that's even the right word. I need to think of some good titles for them.
Thank goodness tomorrow is Presidents Day! Wooo Hooo! No school! I am glad to get this day off. I'm planning on doing a lot of reading and Zumba! Sounds like a great day for me!!
It's that time of year again...Prom. I think I speak for many 18 year old high school seniors when I say that I fear that I will not be going to Prom this year. I'm being DEAD serious people! And here's the sad thing, I went last year and was even nominated for Prom Royalty!! That would make me so depressed if I didn't even get asked this year! High school definitely has it's ups and downs. But I only have 3 months left of this crazy high school experience, so I better live it up right?
As I have been writing this blog entry I really want to watch The Perfect Man, but I lost my copy so will I be watching it tonight? NO! Ugh now I needto find something else! I guess I could go try to see whats on Neflix unless my brother has taken over the X box! Wish me luck! TTYL;)

Never Say Never!

It's friday night baby!! PARTY night with my best friends!!!!
Going to see this fine cute boy....

and then afterwards...well lets just say we are ready for adventure!! The question isn't what are we going to do, but what aren't we going to do.!!!

Update and Aftermath

Hello my friends! I really need to update my little blog more often! As you can see I have changed the design again...I really like it this way! It will be staying for awhile.
Alright updates...
So I'm not doing the letters right now. I will though. Just not right now.
Not too much going on in my 18 year old life. Sweethearts dance was last weekend! And it was super fun!

This is me and my date Connor, who is super attractive and soooooo funny, we have known each other since 7th grade. I was super lucky to get to go to a dance with him! It was a very fun night!

Basketball season is almost over....I love high school basketball!! This is just another thing thats ending that makes me realize that high school is getting closer and closer to the end! Scary! But all in all I'm been having a great time with friends and fam! I can't really complain about anything, I do still of course, but nothing to serious!

Last night I went on a auction date. A couple of weeks ago our school did a date auction to raise money for a charity, so I in the auction and holy crap it probably was the scariest thing I have ever done in my life!! But at least it will be a fun thing to say I have done in my life!

Some thoughts...If you haven't heard of Mumford & Sons by now, shame on you! They have some really good stuff! I highly recommend The Cave. Also I'm reading Revolution, it could possibly be on my favorites list for sure!

Alright so i think thats enough to hold me off for now. But no worries more creativeness and blogs are coming!!! Ta ta for now!!

My New Ride

Ok I know I said that I was going to do the whole letter thing, but I need to tell you about my new car! It's a Mazda3 Red and its super cute!!! I am in love with this car!
I will of course miss my old Syd, but her time has come to an end. It's crazy how much easier life can be when you have a reliable car!!!
Don't fret my fellow bloggers I will get on the letter challenge soon!!

Letters

My friend Ash has this really cool challenge that she is doing on her blog so I am totally going to copy her. So basicly what you do is that everyday for 30 days you write a letter to "someone".

Day 1 — Your Best Friend
Day 2 — Your Crush
Day 3 — Your parents
Day 4 —Your sibling (or closest relative)
Day 5 — Your dreams
Day 6 — A stranger
Day 7 — Your Ex-boyfriend/girlfriend/love/crush
Day 8 — Your favorite internet friend
Day 9 — Someone you wish you could meet
Day 10 — Someone you don’t talk to as much as you’d like to
Day 11 — A Deceased person you wish you could talk to
Day 12 — The person you hate most/caused you a lot of pain
Day 13 — Someone you wish could forgive you
Day 14 — Someone you’ve drifted away from
Day 15 — The person you miss the most
Day 16 — Someone that’s not in your state/country
Day 17 — Someone from your childhood
Day 18 — The person that you wish you could be
Day 19 — Someone that pesters your mind—good or bad
Day 20 — The one that broke your heart the hardest
Day 21 — Someone you judged by their first impression
Day 22 — Someone you want to give a second chance to
Day 23 — The last person you kissed
Day 24 — The person that gave you your favorite memory
Day 25 — The person you know that is going through the worst of times
Day 26 — The last person you made a pinky promise to
Day 27 — The friendliest person you knew for only one day
Day 28 — Someone that changed your life
Day 29 — The person that you want tell everything to, but too afraid to
Day 30 — Your reflection in the mirror
Looks pretty fun! Can't wait to get started!!

To Be or Not to Be?

If there is one thing that I have I can say about the recent events of my life, its that one minute I feel spontaneous and happy and then the next day I have the blues and just feel blah. I find myself contemplating is there really a reason to be worked up or am I just overreacting?
I think I'm overreacting just a bit, not a lot, but enough to make me a tad over the edge.
So right now I'm deciding to take my own advice and just be happy. There's nothing to worry about, everything is going to work out. I am having a blast with my friends and this last year of high school has been the best.
On the other hand...it's 1030 at night and me and my dad are going to work on "college stuff" o joy! Not really, it's extremly stressful and boring!! but it must be done.
Peace out!

The Joys of Winter

January is the worst month ever!! It's bitter cold and sooooo depressing. The one thing that has made this weak worst is that I swear yesterday should have bee Friday, then today should have been Friday, but here I am on a Dang Thursday!!! UGH!! I hate it.
There isn't anything to look forward till next month, and that's a possible maybe...
Right now in class we are watching Finding Nemo.
I think I will take Dory's advice which is...
"When life gets you down, there's only one thing to do. Just keep swimming!!!"

Halfway Gone

So I'm writing this in class right now cause believe it or not the first semester of my Senior year is coming to an end. It's time to start new classes and what is ever better is that since I'm a senior all of the time I spend in school is pretty much free time.
Pretty soon we are all going to go are separate ways and begin our new lives. It's exciting but scary. There are going to be a lot of things that I'm going to miss about high school, but there are many things that I can't wait to forget and get away from.
I'm hope I'm happy when that day comes. I'm hope I am ready. But not matter what happens I guess I don't have a lot of time to waste. The high school life is already halfway gone, it's almost time to grow up.

New

Welcome to my new blog!
After taking the challange to blog everyday for a year, I have started a new blog because blogging has become something that is way fun for me! This blog won't be as intense has everyday, but don't worry I be updating it frequently!
So I hope you enjoy this look into The Secret Life of Shands!!